Who Am I

Lawd! Who am I really? Do I even know? Let the processing of myself begin. 

Well. In my early years I grew up on Gordon Street in Greenville, SC. Why is that important? Well it's the basis of many of the stories you are going to read and influenced who I am today. 

Gordon St growing up. Back in the late 1970's it was a diverse setting meaning that it was a mix of colors but we had one thing in common. We all worked for the man and lived some variation of living paycheck to paycheck. There was a one family in my neighborhood that owned their own business. I thought they were rich. Well, based on my standards of living they were. I didn't even understand Amazon level money even existed at that day and time. You know, the Johnson's and Johnson's kinda of money.

Elementary years. Well I was in 3 Elementary Schools during that Elementary years. Mom and Dad were trying to find a home for me....? I really don't know. Never really asked. However, I will get in to a few of those stories on future blogs. 

I'm not a bean eater. Pretty much of any sort. We had a ton of pinto beans and cornbread growing up and just not a big on them now. 

I'm a Dad of a wonderful kid that hates to do anything for herself. Please note that she could be anything she wants to be in the world. She has proven that with school and online activities. The bold point, so long as it is something she wants to do. She will do it and does it with a passion. 

I am a son to two wonderful parents. Sure. They are not perfect and no one is asking them to be. But they are my parents and I am thankful for that. They raised a kind and gentle man and have taught me a lot of things of what not to do and still trying to teach me what I should be doing. 

I am a brother. Younger brother. Which I am in debt to my brother on a daily basis. Because he regularly screwed up and I was able to learn from his mistakes. BUT! Even when I'm the screw up he's the one that will come and save me in times of need no matter the reason. Damn. I love you brother. 

I've been molested. I've been cheated on. I've been loved by some I could not give my heart too. I've been a good employee. I'm a Cheerleading Dad. I've been broke. I've paid off debts I would have never imagined to do so. I love my friends. I hope that I am a good friend. I am reclusive. I am a party guy. I like to get to know people. I hope people like me. I have a great work ethic (23 years at the same Co). I am lazy by nature. I like to sleep. I enjoy addiction to things I like. I like to fix things. Adrenaline is my high. I want to make God as my center to everything and be like Jesus. But... I suck. I've been divorced. I have loved deeply. I have lost myself in others. I have gained clarity. I'm working on me. 

This life of mine is not easy. I would have been a great man, if it had not been for me. 

This is my life. For that, I am thankful!